Hi Skandha from 2030, this is Skandha from 2020. It’s the beginning of August, and every day seems to creep away without much significance. The pandemic is taking away my sense of time. I don’t feel it passing by. It’s been a month since my final dip jury for college is over. I honestly need to get a grip over this situation.
I’m stuck in the middle of the COVID pandemic, with no clue of how life is going to turn out at the end of this. I miss Marina beach, Bessie beach and eating non-veg outside. Heck, I even took the beard trimmer and trimmed my hair to 5mm because going to the barber was too risky.
I’ll tell you what I’m up to now. I got a job offer to work as a junior designer for an NGO, I’d be working under Sudhakar sir(rememberrrr????). Quite unfortunately, I was supposed to start on 1st August, but I haven’t received the documents to sign, for starting work. Anyways, that will get sorted in a day or two. Apart from that, I’m learning Rhino(hope it helped you through these years). I am currently reading this book – “12 Rules to Life : An Antidote to Chaos” by Jordan Peterson. Yes, that super intelligent psychology professor and practitioner. It’s been really eye-opening for me so far. I know, I know, I’ve said this for almost every self help book so far, but nothing much had changed. What do I do, I’m still trying to understand the inner workings of myself.
Speaking of inner workings, I was desperate to do a Vipassana course after my jury. That seems like a distant dream for now. The program seems to be really promising, a 10 day retreat of silence and shushing the inner malevolent voices. I am also really eager to dip my feet in psychedelics. I don’t think it’s wrong to use external substances to expand our consciousness. I wish I was in South America though, I’d really love to go to an Ayahuasca ritual.
The film I had watched last was Nerkonda Paarvai, starring Ajith. It’s the courtroom drama that highlighted consent and the message “no means no”. It was a good watch, and the “twists” in the story were quite sensible. The fight scene and the flashback were meh, I wish I wasn’t put through those few minutes of fan-service horror.
It’s a Sunday today. The weather has been quite pleasant. It was warm and cloudy today, and there was a thunderstorm from evening till night, with pleasant showers. I spent a lot of time reading today, and did nothing else. The workout was pretty taxing today, but I was treated to the view of a beautiful thunderstorm rolling in. I love looking at those huge cumulonimbus clouds moving over the head so majestically (hope you still like all that). There’s some magic about scale- the sheer size of things that nature puts in front of us. Is it trying to tell us not to let our thoughts take too much space inside us, and make room to see pretty clouds and landscapes?
Next, you would know what I would be up to, you’d have a faint memory at least. But I’m more excited to know about you. What have these 10 years done to you? Are you able to do something meaningful? Ahhhh I wish there were time machines, I’d love to meet you and chill with younger and older Skandhas. Ohhh imagine a crowd filled with older and younger Skandhas, a lot of common interests but different levels of experience and knowledge.
You would be almost 32 years now. How is your health? Are you fit? Little bit of muscle gained? I hope the tummy is gone at least. I’m still struggling now with the tummy. It’s reduced, but that potato bulge ain’t going anywhere, sadly. I am beginning to accept that it’s going to take much longer for the tummy to reduce, even if I follow good eating habits and exercise well.
They say if you worry about something, think if it matters in 10 days? 10 months? 10 years? I certainly have worries in all three categories. What are you worrying about in 2030?, write them down. Also write a letter to Skandha to read at 2040. And keep this letter safe too. I hope I can remember this letter to get it to you on time. And I also hope no unfortunate event wipes the existence of internet in favour of some advanced mode of communication. I think I’ll just print it out and keep it somewhere safe. Paper isn’t going anywhere right? Do you still print in 2030? What about 2040? Is communication material just holographic projections hovering in the air? Sounds fun to imagine.
I think this is enough for now. Have a nice day Skandha boi (or Skundi)
Skandha
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